Thursday, November 15, 2007

Pretending..

I can't I can't I can't! I caaaaaaaaaaaan't!!

I can't do this anymore! I just don't know how to pretend! Ma3arif ajamil!

You know when there's someone that just annoys the hell out of you, and you have to keep yourself calm and collected, whereas you just want to grab the nearest heavy object and smash it on their head?? They're really nice but I can't stand them! And when there's someone you just hate, talking to you, and you're practically seething and you want to bite their head off and watch the blood flow (violent I know!), but instead you have to give a fake smile and pretend you're into the conversation. I just can't do that!

I'm the type of person whose feelings just jump out of her face! If I don't like you, it's gonna show! No matter how hard I try.. I just can't.. I can't mask my feelings! Hard as I try to suppress them, they just show.. *SOB*

Seriously, people do it all the time. Why can't I?? I'm respective of others, I'm kind and thoughtful, and I try to like people as much as I can. But it's just that there are some people who I just can't stand! (Mayenbal3ooon! Yig3idoon 3ala chabdi!) And when I'm around them, friends tell me "Oh, Lady, its obvious you hate her/he annoys you/you were practically sleeping" and so on..

I try to ignore these people, or act as if I didn't see them. But I feel guilty later on. I just want to scream "Get away from me! I can't stand you! I don't like you and I don't hate you, but you're bordering on the hate side at the moment.. So let's keep it neutral ok??"

Please God, forgive me!!

This lady is suffering. No more pretending. Pleaaaaase.. HELP!!

16 comments:

N. said...

I do that too, I still do it! I can be a real ass if I hate someone and I'm not in control of it! I am working on it, and I found that trying to look at their good points if they have any.

If they don't have any, well.. that's the part I'm working on!

'Grey' said...

Are you sure you dont suffer from Stockholm syndrome ? This is crazy ! i cant understand why women do that ! I mean let the chips fall where they may , tell the truth and put an end to your suffering . Trust me you will only ..... "win " !

Princess said...

ok i commented but my laptop swallowed my comment

i do that too 3ade and i know how it sucks lana ur dying to scream at them to just leave u be

madre some people are just sooo annoying regardless of watever

abdvllah said...

It's easy. You just need a good reason to smile. Thinking how pathetic and retarded the person in front of you is, is a very good reason to smile. I do that all the time.

Blue Dress said...

Why dont you figure out whats bothering you in them in the first place and adress that.

Or let them know tara you annnoy the freakin hell out of me malla da3i inderectness.

chikapappi said...

I suffer from the same "in your face attitude" & it's not easy I gotta tell you; My advice to you since I've been in many situations like that is to keep calm & SMILE - just to piss that person off & o show him - her who's in control.. it's not that difficult walla- you will feel sooooo much better too ;)

:::: SHAYOUMA :::: said...

I can't pretend either. Sometimes they ask me something and I keep quiet because I can't lie. If I do, it shows lol!

This Lady said...

many of these "annoying" ppl r really nice oo misakeen!

i know i'm being stupid, but sometimes its the way they look or the way they talk (annoying voice, weird accent), if they're not funny but they think they r, and madry so many things!

i feel like such a bad person!

New Bride said...

alaah y3eenich this is hard , i an facing the same thing

shoosha said...

ana my feelings show 3ala wayhi 3ala 6ool even if i try my best not to. Just ignore, mintay malzooma u go thru all this

Hopeless Poet said...

Daydreaming is the best solution to that! Just think of the wonderful things that you want to do and let your mind wander and keep nodding your head like you are really listening and you will be fine ;)

Marzouq said...

I know exactly what you mean, I can't pretend and it drives me nuts! I really can't stand people like that! I tend to show everything on my face and I have very little patience for people that annoy me.. I tend to react one way or another! If I don't like someone then I just don't so we are on the same page! lol! But being a guy its probably easier for me!

Speedo said...

I can't pretend too so what ever is there is always appearing on my face...and I think its good why to keep in heart let it out!

This Lady said...

ee wallah being a guy is easier. My dad and bro can brush off ppl they don't like in a second.

i think i take after my mom. Maskeena she's too nice!

Swair said...

Hun, you have three choices, either you tell that person to fuck off as nicely as you can...

OR you just smile and think of their level of retardation as abdvlla said...

OR you hire an assassin...

I'm just saying :p

This Lady said...

LOOL! i think i'll stick to number 2!